doing the impossible

   Having insufficient score from our 13 written revalidas had caused me to be part of the list of students who’ll take the dreadful ORAL REVALIDA. It was really disappointing. ‘Cause 1st of all, a lot people (ie. all of my ate’s and kuya’s from the upper batches, my professors, my staffs, and some of my batchmates) had expected that I’ll be exempted, or had warned me that it’s a must that I should be. And the last reason was that I really did my best. Believe me! I really studied for majority of my exams.

   It was so hard for my part to accept my defeat. I am a perfectionist. And through God’s blessings and my family support, I have been a consistent achiever. Thus, this whole experience has been so sad and nerve wracking for me. It made me ask a lot of questions, made me regret a lot of things, and made me doubt about myself, my skills.

   But again, I am keeping my faith in HIM. I know this will be hard. But I’ll do my best. I’ve been looking for an inspiration for the past days, so that I could strive harder in my studies. But I always ended up not finding one. However, I realized that the inspiration that I need is already infront of me, is already with me. 

   So to my FAMILY and to FATHER GOD, my fight against this one giant monster (AKA the oral revalida) is for you. I know that I don’t have self confidence, and I am still not that knowledgeable about everything, but I promise to do my best for you.